Entries by Helena

SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO?

Should I dive deeper, should I sit here and enjoy the view or should I return to the surface?

It isn’t really one of life’s difficult decisions and sooner or later my urge to breath will encourage me to ascend.

Making decisions or choices can be like torture for someone who suffers…

DUVET DAYS

I go to the ocean and hold my breath
to stop time and to hide;

To let the waters wash around me,
even through me
to silence the voices
to calm my weary spirit.

Suspended in a place of eternal blue
currents gently play
caressing my skin
soothing my soul.

Bathed in the peace and tranquil embrace of the deep…

DO YOU SEE WHO I SEE?

Have you ever wondered if your self-assessment is accurate? Is your self-doubt or lack of confidence warranted? Do the people close to you know parts of you better than you know yourself?
The paradox is that you have always been you, and you only see yourself from the inside…

RESILIENCE

When children begin to learn to walk they constantly fall down and have to keep trying again and again, but with persistence, encouragement and support they learn how.
Recovery from depression involves persistence too, but it isn’t easy because the life of depression is about surviving…

JAWS!

Flesh being torn apart by sharp incisors. Chew size pieces crushed and ground before being swallowed…
Did you think i was talking about sharks?
Apologies for misleading you, I want to talk about the human jaw and how it affects our health rather than our frequently misunderstood fishy friends…

JUST MOVE YOUR FOOT

When my depression was really bad, there were days when I mentally struggled to get out from under the duvet to even go to the loo, let alone brush my teeth.
I would have to talk myself into moving my foot to just start the process of getting out of bed, whilst trying to ignore the craziness…

BACK ON THE MAT

Today I did yoga for the first time in nearly 15 months and almost cried after the class because I had missed it so much. Yes, it does sound a little over dramatic, but then I can be at times.
I was in Roatan for the World Championships, August 2017 and had an accident…

WHY SUICIDE?

I have known people who have died by suicide. Some were friends, some acquaintances. I came close to it myself 18 years ago.
For those left behind following a death by suicide, questions of “why did they do it?” and “could I have prevented it?” …

BECOMING A JOY JUNKIE

As a child I hated running, I hated walking. In fact I would pretty much do anything possible to get out of putting one leg in front of the other. I have always maintained I would rather swim somewhere than walk and it would probably be faster too!…