Aged 11 I went to boarding school.  I wanted to go.  I’d seen my brother and sister go off and I wanted in on this amazing adventure.

For 3 days it was and then the crushing reality of homesickness started to rip me apart.

It was the first time in my life I had been fully away from my family and every night without fail, I cried myself to sleep.  I was aware that this wasn’t great for the other girls in my dorm but I was traumatised and unable to help myself for weeks.

Eventually I hardened and then it was only the first few days of term that I felt it.

I’ve done a fair bit of traveling in my life and being a freediver further compounds that because I’m not able to tolerate the cold diving climate in the UK.  I go away for months at a time and while nowadays we have incredible technology that visually connects us at the push of a button, I still have that familiar sickness in my throat every time I say goodbye.

But this post isn’t about feeling sorry for myself because I’m away again and missing home.  This is a post about gratitude and how there is always a different way of looking at things.

6 months ago I wrote a post about resilience, the mental muscle that we build up unconsciously and consciously throughout life and that the more more we strengthen it, the more benefit it has to us.

There is so much more to resilience than I originally thought…

May was not a fun month for me.

Today I turn 45.  Yes, I know I’ve been talking about being 29 for quite a few years now but today I actually turn 45 and with all the preconceived notions that we have in the western world.

There are the usual “adulting” questions that run through my mind:  What am I doing with my life?

I’ve been back in the water for a few weeks now and have been trying out the new SurfEars 3.0.

Before I go any further, if you don’t already know, they sponsor me. However even if they weren’t generous enough to do this, I would still be using their product as they have revolutionised my water life…

I arrived back in Dahab at the end of March and had hoped to jump straight in and start my training with a view to doing a small competition at the end of April but my plans were thwarted by my sinuses having different plans for me, for 10 days….

Finally I managed…

Everyone suffers at least one bad betrayal in their lifetime. It’s what unites us. The trick is not to let it destroy your trust in others when that happens. Don’t let them take that from you. Sherrilyn Kenyon

I have recently learned the extent of my trust issues, where they stemmed from and how I have inadvertently spent all…

The start of 2019 has seen the biggest mental growth spurt of my life and could well be, the most influential weeks of the rest of my life.

I set out to do a comedy course, not because I think I’m funny or fancy doing stand-up (because believe me right now I really don’t,) but to benefit my public speaking. I hoped it would help me to…

Anyone who has ever heard the phrase “comfort zone” has almost certainly heard the old adage that the magic happens on the edge of it or outside it.

I propose that the magic happens as a result of enlarging your comfort zone and is mostly revealed once you have returned to the safety…

There is always a desire to celebrate the good stuff and brush off the crap of the preceding year, hoping that the next 12 months will be better. But we could be missing out on a lot of positivity by doing this.

It is very easy to write off bad experiences by not accepting what has actually happened or…

Should I dive deeper, should I sit here and enjoy the view or should I return to the surface?

It isn’t really one of life’s difficult decisions and sooner or later my urge to breath will encourage me to ascend.

Making decisions or choices can be like torture for someone who suffers…