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Should I dive deeper, should I sit here and enjoy the view or should I return to the surface?

It isn’t really one of life’s difficult decisions and sooner or later my urge to breath will encourage me to ascend.

Making decisions or choices can be like torture for someone who suffers…

Have you ever wondered if your self-assessment is accurate? Is your self-doubt or lack of confidence warranted? Do the people close to you know parts of you better than you know yourself?
The paradox is that you have always been you, and you only see yourself from the inside…

When children begin to learn to walk they constantly fall down and have to keep trying again and again, but with persistence, encouragement and support they learn how.
Recovery from depression involves persistence too, but it isn’t easy because the life of depression is about surviving…

When my depression was really bad, there were days when I mentally struggled to get out from under the duvet to even go to the loo, let alone brush my teeth.
I would have to talk myself into moving my foot to just start the process of getting out of bed, whilst trying to ignore the craziness…

I have known people who have died by suicide. Some were friends, some acquaintances. I came close to it myself 18 years ago.
For those left behind following a death by suicide, questions of “why did they do it?” and “could I have prevented it?” …

It is a question I get asked a lot and the answer is simple:
I now have control over my depression, rather than it having control over me.
18 years ago, depression affected almost every part of my life…

In May 2017, 17 years since my last major depression episode, I posted a photo on Instagram that I had taken from underneath the surface in the Blue Hole, Dahab. I was looking up at the freedivers on the surface and it reminded me of the disconnect…